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Have you ever felt embarrassed by the things that you used to like?

  When I was little, my parents would have me try many different activities. Music, ice skating, swimming, soccer, and more. And even though I liked some of these things, somehow one triumphed in the end: ballet. How this came to be, I don’t know. Honestly, I don’t remember much. But from then on it was over. Everything else disappeared. Ballet was my thing, the thing that I was good at. I made friends there, and it became my passion. But it also came with a downside. Every day, at school, I would be made fun of. I would have people come up to me asking questions like “can I see you twirl?” and “where’s your tutu?”. I didn't show that it affected me, but it did. I was a strong kid. No matter how much mocking I received, I would just come back stronger, more confident. I would tell whoever would listen that I did ballet, and it would become common knowledge wherever I went. That is, until I became a teenager. I became embarrassed, ashamed even. I didn’t want anyone to know. I still ...

Cursing

  I curse a lot. And when I say a lot, I mean a lot. It’s honestly become second nature to me at this point. Anything goes slightly wrong? ****. A little more serious? ****. Genuinely worrying? ******* ****. Exasperated? Jesus ******* Christ. And these are only some of the curse words I use. You can also flip them: ******** **** or add some enriching words: ************* ******* ****. I could go on listing curse phrases for ages, but that’s beside the point. The point is, that I curse a lot. This habit has actually been detrimental to my well-being several times. Just a few weeks ago, at the dodgeball tournament, I was scolded by a teacher for yelling f*** you at the top of my lungs to someone in the stands. I also get in trouble for cursing around children. I’ll be having a conversation with someone (usually when I am responsible for taking care of small kids), and I’ll just start loudly exclaiming several curse words. It’s the worst feeling when you turn around and see dozens ...